2004 sometime ...ne
I wish I could write! I wish I were a writer!
Are you sure you aren’t, says a friend. Not yet I answer.
What on earth would I start my story with? So much has happened since June 2003.
My discovery of a lump in the lymph node in the groin and subsequent diagnosis of a recurrence of an old and ‘thin’ melanoma from 1986 was traumatic and life changing.
So much has been challenging, uncomfortable and so all consuming. My determination to focus on the positive and direct my energy towards the solution not the problem has created great happiness and a sense of peace and hopefulness. I do not always succeed in this but the major part of my waking hours is optimistic. You see I have truly discovered that whatever happens, it will be alright.
I want to fight for my life and my health, but I have to be realistic. It is this conundrum which leads to the ultimate challenge. How can I fight as if I’m going to win and at the same time be aware that I just may not win; in other words, having a realistic acceptance of the aggressive nature of the disease versus a healthy, cancer free existence.
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